Tuesday, March 5, 2013

How I Found Myself

Last night, I watched the makeover episode of the Biggest Loser. It was so inspiring. I was bursting with pride for the contestants, watching them apply what they have learned at the ranch, encouraging their friends and families to make healthy changes/choices. It was awesome to see not only the physical, but the emotional changes in them. I almost cried. It really hit home with me. I could relate to them.

You see, I've been there. Yes, I've walked in their shoes!

Believe it or not, I used to be fat. In 2007, I weighed 180 pounds. That might not sound like much, but on my frame it was a LOT!! I wore a size 14/16, I got winded easily, didn’t have any energy, was tired all the time, didn’t feel remotely sexy or attractive and I couldn’t see my damn feet in the shower!! Yes, my gut stuck out that much!!

The turning point for me was, one night after eating a heavy pasta dinner, I felt bloated and tired. I wanted to go to sleep but my husband wanted to get frisky. I wasn’t in the mood which was happening more often than not. We were still newlyweds and it was a sore subject for us. He couldn’t understand why I didn’t want to. And I couldn’t explain to him what I was feeling emotionally. When I looked in the mirror, I saw a fat disgusting girl. How could anyone want to be romantic with me? I was disgusting! Something had to change, and it did!!

Shortly after that night, I started to make changes to my eating habits. I cut out soda pop completely and increased the amount of water I drank. I cut out as much junk food as possible. I increased my fruit and vegetable intake to 5 servings daily. I cut out any foods with high fructose corn syrup, partially hydrogenated oils, and bleached enriched flour. I tried to limit my fat and sugar intake to foods with 5 grams or less. And guess what happened? The weight started coming off. Quickly, too I might add! I started making these changes in March and 6 months later, just in time for my 40th birthday party, I had lost 60+ pounds. I was around 117 – 120 pounds and was wearing a size 4.

But my size isn’t the only thing that changed. I changed. I suddenly had more confidence than I had ever had. I think it was because I was finally proud of myself for accomplishing something so difficult!! I felt better about myself than I ever had before and that spilled over into every aspect of my life. At home, I felt pretty and sexy, so hubs was happy! And at work, I exuded confidence. I felt like my supervisors and co-workers started to give me more responsibility and take me more seriously. It was such an exhilarating, liberating feeling!! I would say by losing 60 pounds, I found me!! What will you gain if you lose??


  1. You look absolutely lovely. Congrats! what's even better is the confidence you've found in yourself!

  2. Great job losing the weight and keeping it off. Just goes to show it doesn't have to be drastic, I am impressed how fast you lost it all! You look great.

  3. What will you gain if you lose? WOW girl! I love it!!! You look FAB BTW one day I will get there :-)

  4. Yes, ma'am, you sure will!! :-) Thank you, btw